Ik hou heel erg veel van jou

Last night James left me alone completely. I think he is finally moving on. He has the support of 2 ex girlfriends and myself, and he is apparently talking to just about everyone he comes across about us breaking up and how much it is hurting him! Very odd indeed.

Meanwhile, Kris and I have spent every night except last Wednesday night together. His ex girlfriend broke the poor guy emotionally so badly that he has anxiety about every little thing that he thinks might upset me about his past. See, I don't give a rat's ass about his past since it had nothing to do with me and since when you meet someone new, you have to expect that there have been some fucked up experiences in their life. Things they can't take back and things that made them who they are today. The facts are that he and I are ridiculously compatible and in love with each other and that may never have happened if it weren't for other, sometimes bad things that happened to us.

Last night we talked about the future. Wow. I haven't done that in years successfully. He wants to have kids someday and get married. Then he told me that he wanted to be in this with me for the long run. I asked him if he meant he wanted to marry me and he said, "Yeah, someday!" and kissed me. He. Wants. To. Marry me!!! Damn. it seems fast I know but it also seems right. I think if it felt weird to talk about that stuff then I would have to reevaluate how this was going. But I look at him and i can totally see us growing old together!! He is so sweet and romantic and passionate, and a gentleman at the same time. Yes you may vomit now. I haven't found anything about him that I can't deal with. Last night he told me some things that made me think, "we'll have to work on that" mostly due to things his ex did to him, but I even said that aloud to him and he agreed. i feel like i can tell him just about anything. Sigh.