Its Over. Meh.

Ok well I am officially a non-IBMer now. I passed in my badge and phone this morning. What was nice was that people seemed genuinely sad to see me go. I got 4 hugs (all men of course) and my friend Matt who I have shared a locker with left me a card with a 40$ gift card to Ben Franklin in it!! I am going to miss my friends. They were really all I had except Becca. I can't imagine not seeing Bobbie and Amy and Bobby and Matt and Terry and even..........Judy. Now I'm crying. And now is the time my iTunes randomly decided to play the "Princess Bride" theme song which is very melancholy. When I walked into my manager's office I was fine until he said, "We're going to miss you kiddo" and then I started to cry. I always cry when I go to his office...he must think I am a nutcase. Ok well he's right but still it is pretty ridiculous. He and another manager who I do not know both said they want to see me back in 6 months but that could all be bullshit. I gave Bobbie my phone so she is the lucky one ha ha.

Multi-faceted chaos?

I am not going to get the UVM job. They are reposting it because I am not experienced enough and they don't want to risk hiring me. Story of my fucking life. Terry told me I should apply at Hannaford's and tell them I want to do the Fast Track to be manager. Sounds good but I am afraid that the rumors I hear are true about that place and that it is just as immature or worse than IBM. I don't want another crap job. I want something I can stay in for a couple of years. As much as I hate IBM's hours, politics, and management system, it was a steady predictable job that I enjoyed doing (the work, that is) and that kept me afloat and busy. Sitting behind a desk does not appeal to me and dealing with bratty 40 year olds doesn't either. A combo of both is my worst job hell.

Do I look happy for real? I'm good at faking it...maybe I should work customer service...

Kris has been just wonderful lately. Well, he always is, but he is really what is keeping me together. He stays with the kids so I can go to the gym, he brought me roses for no reason, and he is always happy to listen to me and we have great discussions. I am so grateful for him. His ex was a total fool. I don't know how anyone could treat such a great guy like such shit. Oh well good for me that she did I guess!

Well I'm going to get ready to go to the gym now...after I am meeting Bobbie and her husband and Kris and hitting a movie. I want to see 10,000 BC so I can get a good look at my monkey ancestors lol just kidding. Looks like it will be a combo of the Mummy, Jurassic Park, and LOTR as far as creatures and animation. Sweet.

Oh and by the way, read this article if you have time. Its interesting and scares the shit out of me. I'm sure my brain has taken a hit. Great. More to be depressed about LOL!!!!