if its not one thing....

So today I was planning on going to the bank and going to therapy, etc. getting some stuff done. well i guess that was not meant to be. alex has huge swollen tonsils last night and then came in this morning saying he couldn't sleep because his throat felt funny and his glands seemed to be swollen still. He asked me if he could stay home because he felt sick and I said ok. So now I am home with both kids. then a little while ago my eye started to itch, so I stupidly scratched it and now it is totally swollen and gross and my allergies are attacking me! what the hell????? i feel like crap now!! god i see another wasted day ahead of me. I hate those. too many in my opinion. i feel bad for kris because he is totally swamped with all the work he has for his 2 classes, teaching, and seminar he has to prepare, and here i am bitching and moaning and being grumpy all the time. i saw my bank account today and i was scared. it made me wonder why the hell i wanted to be worse off by starting my own business. i had been text messaging back and forth with my neighbor (silly i know) and i didn't realize that each message either way was 15 cents! that adds up to A LOT. 58$ to be exact. So i spent 58 dollars texting a girl that lives 50 feet from my house. ouch. i thought it was 10 cents for outgoing and 2 cents for incoming, but apparently that is only on the older analog phones. And my internet/phone bill is up to 60 dollars for my landline which I NEVER use and has no long distance so I don't get that. i was under the impression that my phone bill was 18 a month and the DSL was 29.99/month but something is screwy there too. Between those two things I am going broke. If I didn't have those expenses I would have 220$ extra a month. But can I live without the internet? Scary. How would I have my jewelry business online? How would I do anything with my pictures? I can't use Mom and Dad's computer all the time. I wish I could get rid of the landline, get out of my cell contract with Rocky and get a simpler plan that was cheaper, and keep the internet. Maybe I'll try to get that done today. Maybe.