Night Owl
So I made it through both Valentine's Day and D-Day aloneish without freaking out, if anyone cares. Thank God for Becca is all I can say.
Everyone is sick and it sucks.
I am not sick right now. Weird.
I will be jobless in 4 weeks and I have gotten 5 overdraft notices, totaling whatever 5 x 22 is. That sounds like a lot to me. Crap.
All in all, the worst possible week for Kris to leave (I know it was not his choice) and I feel like God dropped just about every anvil on my head that He could find. But I haven't cried yet. Unfortunately those things usually hit me a couple weeks after the fact. I just go through the actual happening in a bit of a daze before I realize what the hell actually happened.
I realized that all of my blogs about my personal life have been dark, moody, and depressing. I don't know how to not be like that. I see Sarah's blog and its sunny, bright, and light and strangers stop by it regularly and comment. I have to laugh when I think of how in the beginning Sarah tried to warn me about blogs and how I shouldn't have one because some stalker would come kill me!! LOL!! I love shit like that. I also realized that the more bitter my heart is the more I swear. Poo.
I can't wait until summer. I feel like my life is on hold in the winter. That's a long time to be on hold. That's a lot of elevator muzak to sit and listen to.
I realize that Valentine's Day means nothing to me right now. Last year there was a man who drove through the worst blizzard in forever (Vermonters you know what I'm talking about) and even had roses delivered to me that same day, just to be with me. Yeah, he was a douche all in all, but that was pretty cool. Except he threw it in my face when we broke up.
Ok well I'm off to bed. Can't wait to wake up so I can daydream about going back to bed all day. Yay IBM.
Everyone is sick and it sucks.
I am not sick right now. Weird.
I will be jobless in 4 weeks and I have gotten 5 overdraft notices, totaling whatever 5 x 22 is. That sounds like a lot to me. Crap.
All in all, the worst possible week for Kris to leave (I know it was not his choice) and I feel like God dropped just about every anvil on my head that He could find. But I haven't cried yet. Unfortunately those things usually hit me a couple weeks after the fact. I just go through the actual happening in a bit of a daze before I realize what the hell actually happened.
I realized that all of my blogs about my personal life have been dark, moody, and depressing. I don't know how to not be like that. I see Sarah's blog and its sunny, bright, and light and strangers stop by it regularly and comment. I have to laugh when I think of how in the beginning Sarah tried to warn me about blogs and how I shouldn't have one because some stalker would come kill me!! LOL!! I love shit like that. I also realized that the more bitter my heart is the more I swear. Poo.
I can't wait until summer. I feel like my life is on hold in the winter. That's a long time to be on hold. That's a lot of elevator muzak to sit and listen to.
I realize that Valentine's Day means nothing to me right now. Last year there was a man who drove through the worst blizzard in forever (Vermonters you know what I'm talking about) and even had roses delivered to me that same day, just to be with me. Yeah, he was a douche all in all, but that was pretty cool. Except he threw it in my face when we broke up.
Ok well I'm off to bed. Can't wait to wake up so I can daydream about going back to bed all day. Yay IBM.
5 comments:
I can't believe it's only 4 weeks away. Have you heard from UVM?
Listen, I choose to represent myself on my blog in that manner, and I could be dark and depressing if I wanted to. I am very selective about what I write, so people aren't always seeing the "whole" me. There's no right or wrong, but it can also be hard to always be chipper and acting like everything's great. I just noticed that I am more likely to make blogger friends when I am not posting about negative things and dwelling on my problems like I sometimes do. But then it's also very shallow of people not to comment when you are having a bad day. It's all very superficial, really.
Hey, I don't put much personal info on my blog, and I'm still afraid of stalkers!!
Errr, the swearing thing.......it's a personal choice. Swearing represents your character, that's all I have to say. It's hard not to swear sometimes.
Why is it that your Valentine's day always sucks? I don't get it. You are married and yet you are not with him on your first Valentine's day? What is going on???????????? I hope this trip was worth it to him...or ELSE!!! LOL! Don't even START reminiscing about JAMES!!
Don't worry, my Valentine's day was uneventful because we both were cranky and went to bed around 8:00....
Love ya,
S
I'm sorry you had a rough time with Valentine's Day. I'm sure that Kris would rather have been with you than listening to science.
I hope that a job comes through so you have one less thing to worry about. I love you and I have been thinking of you.
- Astrid Eleanor Cecilia
Hey girl,
I'm sorry to hear you feel like God is dropping anvils on your head so much...
I do pray that things work out as they should soon enough and that there is more sunshine in your life...! Sorry to hear your Valentine's Day wasn't the greatest, but I hope you get to have some good quality time with your man when he's back in town...and sorry to hear about the kids being sick and all, too.
Keep your chin/head (whatever! lol) up, Betsy...and do your best...that's all we can do as human beings!
God Bless, and take care.
Just had a bad day/night when I wrote this post. Sorry. Maybe I should change the colors again on my blog. every since they went to the beta version i feel like a dumbass when it comes to changing the background.
You are allowed to vent.
But maybe cheerier colors would help? ;)
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