Today....was a day.
Today was my divorce hearing. The final one. In front of a judge. So I picked Rocky up at his house and told him about the noise on the way to drop off the kids at my parents' house. He was shocked at how loud it was on the interstate and said it might be my bearings. Great. That is a very expensive problem. Luckily I have a warranty since the car is only 2 years old but there is no telling if that is covered or not.
We went to court, had our 15 minutes in front of the judge who of course happens to like Ford Thunderbirds (Rocky's fav and he owns a shitbeater one) so it was all jovial and thankfully really easy. We went to my parents' house to get the kids and switched cars with my Dad and took the kids to Denny's for lunch.
Its too bad that Rocky and I couldn't have stayed married because we get along great...as long as we aren't living together. We had a nice time at lunch and then I brought him home.
I started Alex in the Bible School at the Harvest Baptist Church that is 3 driveways down from my house. He really liked it and wants to go all 5 nights! Its from 6:30 to 8:30 pm which is perfect because I can get all my stuff done during the day and then after dinner he has something to do until bedtime.
So I do not know how I am feeling. I got into it with James at work yesterday even though I knew it was a bad idea, I just couldn't help myself from telling him how he was making me feel and how I was just so done with it all and to stop everything now instead of continuing this retarded game we are playing. He hung up on me, so I deleted him from my myspace and sent him an email saying "Done. Have a nice life." I figured he would just shrug his shoulders and say "Fine bitch whatever you want." But no, he called me back an hour later and seemed to want to hash it out. He was being nice actually, but I was so livid that I said some really mean things. I told him we were wasting our time, and that if he never wanted to get married, settle down, have a family and all that then there was no point in dragging this out. He said "I never said I didn't want those things." Yeah but you never said you did, either. He is teasing me now saying these things that give me a reason to want to keep talking to him, yet things are never going to change. Brew fest is this weekend, and yet again another event is going to happen where he goes with his friends and I am not invited. I know he already got tickets to it. I am pretty fucking sure mine isn't one of them. Of course when I ask him about it he says his famous, "I don't know." He said that when I asked him if he wanted me to be out of his life completely, if he still considered himself in a relationship, and if he wanted to talk it out in a different setting. To me, I Don't Know means "NO but I'm too chickenshit to tell you that". What does "I don't know" mean to you?
4 comments:
Wow, what a day!!
Hope that today is less eventful, and that your car is covered by warranty. :D Glad that the divorce finalization was painless as could be expected. And sorry that James is being a jerk. I, personally, think you can do better than that. I haven't met him, but it seems like he has a lot of growing up to do, and you don't have to be responsible for another child, imo.
Love you!
I know I can do better but my weakness keeps me from cutting him out completely even when he does or says something that someone else would kick him to the curb for. He has a lot of potential to a good mate but after 2 years he hasn't changed his ways at all so I give up.
Thankfully Rocky and I are now BFF instead of exes. I am going to bring my car to the dealership in a short while. yay.
Well, if it didn't work out for the marriage, can't ask for much more than a good relationship.
Good luck with the car,
Astrid Eleanor Cecilia
Hiya girl,
Thanks for sharing, and I'm sorry to hear that day wasn't the best...I pray your week is going better so far!
and that's cool Alex is in that Bible School...it sounds nice and I'm glad he enjoys it!! I loved being his age, especially with stuff at church. Children's Church every Sunday morning, Vacation Bible School in the summer, other little things like that...I got lots from them : )
I also pray that all goes well with the car and it's covered and things will be fine in no time!!
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